Yeh Saali Zindagi..

Felt like updating something once in a while. Last few weeks have been kinda silent. The silence was more to do with analyzing and brain-storming the downside events in my life.Got a new puzzle and finished it, some new characters and all. My existent life keeps me reminding that I am still alive.

The series of events that took place in my life have made me stronger.Still a crash is a crash. The impact or aftemath can be less damaging, but somehow you get affected. Its like coming back to zero or may be negative, standing back infront of the mirror and looking at yourself and often we cannot look at ourselves, because it is too painful to do so, or because we unceasingly judge ourselves. We deny to accept facts and the situation in which we find ourselves whereas we really need to look and see, to be aware of what is happening.

It can be a weird feeling where you know everything and still don't know anything. You know there is no point in having regrets and the best option is to move on ahead in life and still you can't move. Its a strange kind of battle within yourself where mind,heart,nerves,emotions,desires and everything in you ,come into play. Life has new type of tremors for you always. For instance, I lived with a feeling of guilt. When I came out of it,I was introduced to Rejection and when I did manage to over come that too, Relegation was there in store. So life has its own ways to give you pain in its own style and flavor immaterial you like it or not.

One thing is for sure, you don't remain the same person you used to be, once you deal with harsh events of life. I was a maverick,eccentric, naughty guy. Now I would find hard to define my own self. I search reasons to laugh and smile and that is artificial. I have always believed..Laughter should come from inside. Are we ourself responsible for problems in our life and is it wrong on our part to blame it on destiny,God or someone else. Should not we accept our fault for failing to control our own desires, greed, expectations that has landed us into a terrible state. If the intentions, expectations were pure,true and noble then were the results appropriate. I am told Man has a reason and God has even a bigger reason. In my own life, I have never been demanding,mean or selfish in my prayers to the Almighty. And if at all I wished was for a small quantum of happiness in life too was wrong, what am I doing as a Human. Don't I deserve to be happy, peaceful and live a normal life.

They say..Listen to your heart, mind is always divided. But in this real world people have been successful who have listened to their minds instead :) And ironically there will be few people with whom you can share all your problems, one who will listen to you with patience and encourage you with positivity. After all the series of thinking, I am of the view that Life is just like a tyre of the vehicle, immaterial the road is bumpy,rocky or smooth, you have to take the ride, unless you are taken off.

You need to move on...forgetting that divided mind still thinks and a broken heart still beats.Let this heart break and mend. Let this soul shatter and reform. Let this mind become weary but it will rest. There is nothing left to loose...A bend on the road is not the end, unless you fail to make the turn. LIFE KNOCKS US DOWN, WE NEED TO CHOOSE WHETHER TO STAND BACK OR NOT...